In my mid 20’s God told me that he was going to use me to help heal others. I never asked for clarification, So what did I do…I poured myself into my books and became a RN. I thought that was the way that I would help others heal, surely that’s what God meant.
In my early 30’s I asked for clarification, my career wasn’t what God meant when He said I would help others heal. I was in the word and diligently sought after God, but their was one thing wrong…I didn’t believe that I was worthy of ministry, I didn’t know myself as God saw me. Back then I thought God would only use those who I saw as worthy of doing God’s work. I never thought that ministry was for me because I didn’t fit the mold. I compared my walk to the walk of others and automatically disqualified myself because I am not like them! I wore the comparison label really bad. I knew that my heart was for people and being a positive influence for others was a priority of mine, but to be used by God to help others heal and walk in their purpose…NOT ME?!?!? I barely liked myself so how could God use me to help others…No way! I didn’t know my gifts or even think God gave me any gifts that could help heal others. So I pushed the assignments to the side and really placed it in the back of my mind.
I would often talk real bad to myself about where I was in life because I knew what God told me when I was in my 20’s and clarified in my 30’s…I wasn’t working my assignment. I was actually doing the opposite…running from it! I have gone through some things and have conquered many of them. I do not claim to have all of the answers or claim to be perfect…but I will be transparent about my journey to get to this point in life. I know that God can and will use those who may see themselves as unqualified and not up to the “standard” of those who seem to have it all together. I know that my words have power because God has given me power.
That word that God gave me in my 20’s wasn’t for then…it was for NOW! A woman in her 40’s that has literally lived by faith, that has had her own personal walk with God, that truly loves herself and others, that wants to complete the assignment of helping others heal and walk in their purpose. I am a WOMAN of INTENT…I have intentionally answered the call of God on my life and will intentionally complete the assignments that are given me and the ones to come.
God may have given you an assignment that you feel you aren’t equipped to complete but I am a witness to God’s processing and timing. I know who I am and whose I am. I believe what God says about me. I am not beneath anyone! They may not use the eloquent language in their lengthy prayers and have the ability to recite scripture that they have memorized since childhood Sunday School and that is all good for them! But It is the experiences that I have endured over these years that have qualified me to take my position. It is the simple prayers that have gotten me through. It is the word that has transformed my mind through application of the word in my life. It is my transparency that will be used to help others heal and live out their purpose. My words have the power to speak life into others because they have been gifted to me by God! I am equipped and ready.
God needs all types of people from all types of backgrounds to bring what is needed into the earth as vessels. Do not allow comparison or your past experiences the opportunity to stop you from completing your assignments from God! It’s not too late…pick up your assignments and GO!
Love yourself enough to believe in what God has placed in you to share. You didn’t go through all that you endured just to sit on it! SHARE your truth with others, it just may help them heal! Be blessed and Be a blessing! TRUTH